Yesterday, I had the freak-out of a lifetime: I started spotting in the morning, while I was at work.
When I came out of the restroom, my first reaction was: Look it up on the internet! The internet will tell you what to do! (because yes, I'm that stupid). Of course, after 2 minutes I started thinking What the hell am I doing? What if my baby is dying and I'm sitting here looking for answers on the web? So I, very calmly, told my supervisor, and then burst into tears like a maniac.
Of course, when I told him what was going on, he freaked out too. He told me to go to the hospital immediately, because despite the fact that it could be nothing, it could stil be something, and it was better if I went to get myself checked out by a doctor.
And after I left the office I called my Mom and Dad, because Michael was at work and couldn't answer the phone. Of course, they tried to calm me down while being incredibly freaked out themselves. So my dad met me at the hospital, and waited outside the room while I was examined.
But on the way to the hospital, I started thinking of what I would do if something happened to the baby. And I decided I'd have my parents commit me at a mental institution because I just wouldn't be able to take it. Just... no. And then I realised how incredibly strange it is that the thing you don't want at all at first, is sometimes the very thing you get to love the most.
So I went, and apparently it was nothing. Of course, I'm still a little apprehensive because it didn't feel like the doctor gave me a good enough examination. I don't know if I'm just paranoid, but she didn't even use the doppler, and I thought she might at least want to listen to the baby's heartbeat. Am I, in fact, paranoid?
Anyway, apparently everything is okay, and I have a prenatal appointment on monday, so I'll tell the doctor all about the incident and see what she thinks. And well, at least I got to watch the Costa Rica-Germany game at home and not at work. We lost, but we played pretty well.
And I'm now starting to ramble about the World Cup, so I guess that's my cue to end the post here and go watch the Argentina-Côte D'Ivoire match. Good night, and have a pleasant tomorrow.